Prayer 1- A lament

Oh God, I feel silenced by my shock.

                I try and hold onto the memories of your steadfast love,

                                But I fail.

My guts turn within my belly, and my eyes build up with tears.

                Why… why is this happing to me again

HAVE I NOT PROVEN MYSELF TO YOU?!?!

                Have I not paid my dues?

                Did I not fight for your justice?

                                For your church?

Why did I show grace?

 Why did I show Grace when I feel you have given me none?

                What did I do to derive this from you!?

                Where is your love now?

                Where in your peace?

Where are you now, have you not seen?

When will I leave this desert journey?

                When is the exodus for my pain?

                How deeply must I grown and wail before you hear me?

                How long, O God? How long will I be tormented by your calling?

Is this my cross to bear?

                Is this what you want from me!?

Have I not yet proven my Love?

Have I not yet paid my debt for my sins?

Was not my debt paid on the cross?

                Will I too have to be sacrificed by this crowed?

Must I to face my judgment in silence as Christ did?

When will you come to me Oh God?

                When will to swoop in and rescue me?

                Do you even know that I am here?

Cannot your light shine in the darkness?

Or have you forgotten me?

When will you comfort me God?

                Will you see my pain?

                Will you hold me in the pit?

                Will you fill me with peace?

Will I again know your love?

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